So I'm about 4DPO and today I have orrible cramps :( I feel like I'm about to come on my period.
Apart from that I'm fine! I have been feeling a bit down today as I really feel like I want to go back to work now. I love Alice and I've been so lucky to have so much time with her, but she's getting to the stage now where I think she needs to be with other children and there's not enough groups round here for me to keep her occupied. I'm also sick of us not having any money to do anything. So I'm on the job hunt again x
Thursday, 28 January 2010
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Day 18..
I had a positive ovulation test on sunday which was day 16! I was very excited, I haven't done OPKs for a few months now.
I'm kind of seeing this as our last chance to get pregnant on our own without any help so we both really want to put a lot of effort into it. I mean like legs in the air afterwards kind of business! haha On sunday I did legs up for about 20 minutes, then I just lay still for an hour before I got up. Last night I lay with a pillow under my bum for an hour and then just lay down for another hour before getting up. I also wonder if it would help to lie on my left side so they go to the left? Do you see how much thought I am putting into this? I also don't know when to stop the baby making if the positive OPK was on sunday, possibly when Colin gets annoyed with me! Once again, I had something else to say but have forgotten!!
x
I'm kind of seeing this as our last chance to get pregnant on our own without any help so we both really want to put a lot of effort into it. I mean like legs in the air afterwards kind of business! haha On sunday I did legs up for about 20 minutes, then I just lay still for an hour before I got up. Last night I lay with a pillow under my bum for an hour and then just lay down for another hour before getting up. I also wonder if it would help to lie on my left side so they go to the left? Do you see how much thought I am putting into this? I also don't know when to stop the baby making if the positive OPK was on sunday, possibly when Colin gets annoyed with me! Once again, I had something else to say but have forgotten!!
x
Thursday, 21 January 2010
Thinking...
I'm thinking about these tests a lot now. Col's is 16th Feb, I don't have my appointment through yet.
The dr said it is very unlikely to be Colin because I have been pregnant twice and it has happened quickly but they want to test him anyway to rule it out. So its very likely its to do with the ectopic, I think I am very scared they are going to tell us there is nothing wrong. Because then there's nothing to fix? I have heard they give you clomid if they can't find anything, that scares me. I know there is a risk of twins with that and whilst that would be lovely, we do not have the space for 3 children and don't have the money to extend or move. There was another point I wanted to make to this post but I've forgotten so I will come back when I remember!
The dr said it is very unlikely to be Colin because I have been pregnant twice and it has happened quickly but they want to test him anyway to rule it out. So its very likely its to do with the ectopic, I think I am very scared they are going to tell us there is nothing wrong. Because then there's nothing to fix? I have heard they give you clomid if they can't find anything, that scares me. I know there is a risk of twins with that and whilst that would be lovely, we do not have the space for 3 children and don't have the money to extend or move. There was another point I wanted to make to this post but I've forgotten so I will come back when I remember!
Friday, 15 January 2010
Update.
So I figured now is probably the best time to start blogging on here again.
So we're now on day 7 of month 9. Last weekend was probably my lowest point of this whole experience, I had so many pregnancy symptoms my period was taking its time to show and I really did get my hopes up. I decided I needed to leave any forums I was on that had mums and babies on as so many people are pregnant at the moment and its heartbreaking for me to read all those posts. All I could focus on was babies, not being pregnant, and just how sad I was feeling. I now feel a lot better after almost a week away, I have started to focus on losing weight. I weighed myself for the first time in a very long time on monday and found that I need to lose 3 stone!! I'm so annoyed with myself that I have let it get this far. So I want to lose 3 stone or 2 dress sizes, whichever comes first.
Today I went to the Dr to ask to be reffered for a HSG to check the state of my remaining tube which the Dr was more than happy to do. She was so lovely and a lot more helpful than the male Dr I saw in October, she said as I had the ectopic she would start the investigations early rather than waiting until may when it will have been a year we've been trying since the ectopic. Colin also has to go in on monday to provide a sample, I feel a bit sorry for him but he doesn't seem bothered. I know I am going to have to be prodded and poked in some not very nice places but I have given birth and had a few internal check ups so its not new to me. I feel a lot happier now I know we're on the road to finding out if something can be done or not. If not, yes I will be disapointed but it won't be the end of the world because we already have Alice who is so amazing and makes us both so happy and she really is a blessing. I'm thinking of making my blog public again also but I might wait a bit longer.
x
So we're now on day 7 of month 9. Last weekend was probably my lowest point of this whole experience, I had so many pregnancy symptoms my period was taking its time to show and I really did get my hopes up. I decided I needed to leave any forums I was on that had mums and babies on as so many people are pregnant at the moment and its heartbreaking for me to read all those posts. All I could focus on was babies, not being pregnant, and just how sad I was feeling. I now feel a lot better after almost a week away, I have started to focus on losing weight. I weighed myself for the first time in a very long time on monday and found that I need to lose 3 stone!! I'm so annoyed with myself that I have let it get this far. So I want to lose 3 stone or 2 dress sizes, whichever comes first.
Today I went to the Dr to ask to be reffered for a HSG to check the state of my remaining tube which the Dr was more than happy to do. She was so lovely and a lot more helpful than the male Dr I saw in October, she said as I had the ectopic she would start the investigations early rather than waiting until may when it will have been a year we've been trying since the ectopic. Colin also has to go in on monday to provide a sample, I feel a bit sorry for him but he doesn't seem bothered. I know I am going to have to be prodded and poked in some not very nice places but I have given birth and had a few internal check ups so its not new to me. I feel a lot happier now I know we're on the road to finding out if something can be done or not. If not, yes I will be disapointed but it won't be the end of the world because we already have Alice who is so amazing and makes us both so happy and she really is a blessing. I'm thinking of making my blog public again also but I might wait a bit longer.
x
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