Update.

So I figured now is probably the best time to start blogging on here again.

So we're now on day 7 of month 9. Last weekend was probably my lowest point of this whole experience, I had so many pregnancy symptoms my period was taking its time to show and I really did get my hopes up. I decided I needed to leave any forums I was on that had mums and babies on as so many people are pregnant at the moment and its heartbreaking for me to read all those posts. All I could focus on was babies, not being pregnant, and just how sad I was feeling. I now feel a lot better after almost a week away, I have started to focus on losing weight. I weighed myself for the first time in a very long time on monday and found that I need to lose 3 stone!! I'm so annoyed with myself that I have let it get this far. So I want to lose 3 stone or 2 dress sizes, whichever comes first.

Today I went to the Dr to ask to be reffered for a HSG to check the state of my remaining tube which the Dr was more than happy to do. She was so lovely and a lot more helpful than the male Dr I saw in October, she said as I had the ectopic she would start the investigations early rather than waiting until may when it will have been a year we've been trying since the ectopic. Colin also has to go in on monday to provide a sample, I feel a bit sorry for him but he doesn't seem bothered. I know I am going to have to be prodded and poked in some not very nice places but I have given birth and had a few internal check ups so its not new to me. I feel a lot happier now I know we're on the road to finding out if something can be done or not. If not, yes I will be disapointed but it won't be the end of the world because we already have Alice who is so amazing and makes us both so happy and she really is a blessing. I'm thinking of making my blog public again also but I might wait a bit longer.

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